Make a deal wit urself

You should know what will you be in the future, should you?

Seems like doing a hard work tis few days

like a diligent child.

Stayed in the school library

turn the page and type into the lap

but there's no progressing with my work

Haa.. I like my wallpaper.

It should be the first time I change my wallpaper into an idol pic

I mean on tis lappy

but actually I like the feel it given to me

kinda blue.. kinda cool.. kinda emo..

err hemm.. ok.

There's lot of thoughts flying thru my mind

or having said that

there's many things I would like to do but I never do it.

I think the law assignment can be finish in a few days

can be finish in a quick time

but there always a delay, delay, delay..

so still havent start.

There's lot of idea of doing a handmade

make myself a pouch

or try something new on the fabric

but still, never do.

ok~ make u a pinky ribbon =)

Lost a few weeks

Too lazy; to do anything.

But I've done many things during the last few weeks

Attended birthday party; stayed at Joyce's house; junksales; homestay.

I love chatting.

I need to find myself back

cant do nothing when there's a lot of assignment haven done

I dun think I'll watch the SS3

but now I've change my mind

A pool of BLUE SEA

Must find this man

isn't it..?

Listen to my heart

那突如其来的狂风暴雨.. = =

鸡蛋糕.. 每次野餐都来跟我下雨是怎样？！

害我去不到苏丹公园

难得借到Diana Mini出来

我就不信邪 下次还是要再来野餐！

其实一直以来我都搞不清楚一件事

我好像从来就没有为谁特别感动过

我一直都知道我身边有一堆凡事都为我着想

费尽力气就是要为我好、让我每天都快快乐乐的好朋友

从诗吟她们到姐妹们

我一直都知道的

或许你会说我太没心没肺

做那么多我都感受不到

但请你们相信 永远都不是因为你们做得不好

只不过我是个占有欲不太弱的自私鬼

我直到现在才清楚了解

原来“互相”是一件很重要的事

只有我把球完完整整的丢给你 你才能把球好好的丢还给我

相反还是一样

如果你让我觉得有不安全感

我就会开始把所有东西都遮遮掩掩起来

不是我不愿意敞开我自己

是你先选择把你自己掩饰起来

从我出生到现在20个年头

我从来没试过

明明上一刻还试图反驳一个人的话

结果下一秒钟就被那句说出口的话感动得眼泪直接滑出眼眶

唔.. 或许写了出来 效果真的没那么震撼

她没有很刻意地说出来

只是疼惜的表情混着愤愤不平的语气

她说：

「怎么男人都瞎了啊？这么一个需要被保护的女生

为什么就是没有一个人愿意牵起她的手？」

当时我们在Gloria Jean's Coffees

坐在沙发上聊着天。

那时我还在教她：

如果你很爱一个人 就一定要说出口

就算知道他知道了你还是要告诉他

只有一次又一次的认真说着

他才会打从心底的感受到你的确是爱着他的

只有真实地把情感转述给对方知道

对方才能感受得到

以前我们总是追求着一种境界

「就算不说 了解我的人总会知道的」

那时有人跟我说

如果想表达的东西传递不到你想表达的人心里

那所有东西都只是空想罢了

现在我才了解

那种所谓的境界

是从真实的转达 一直到了某种程度的默契

才会升华到那种不说也会有人知道的心有灵犀

我说的是爱情 也是友情。

Sinful Day

Shit! got thief! a pervert thief!

stole our bras and underwears!!!

omg.. what if the thief had noticed our house for a period

den how??

Today I should sleep until 12 or wat

but thx to my ba4 dao4 aunt

sis & me was woken up by a series of phone rings

juz to fetch her to meet my grandmum

9 August; SG National Day; no class.

plan to meet Lising and have a LOMO trip

but sis said she wanted to use the car

bobian stay at home lo

but den after received aunt call

the only thing can do is juz follow her order

ya cuz she's always the one to order ppl

but not that kind of irritated person larrr

she's always treat us well

ok lo.. the plan seems like needed to delay until evening

Meet grandmum, and bring her to eat lunch.

omg.. juz a lunch..

den we go to 五福北京楼

It must be a heavy lunch.

yaya.. both sis & me earn that sumptuous meal

after that we went to have foot massage

The first time of my foot massage~

sis gotta meet her friend so she din have it

so nervous + excited~!!

okay a little bit of painful

but I'm almost fall asleep after that

the guy who help me massage also veli attentive

he discovered that I'm staring at the TV which located at the other side

he quickly change the channel for me which located in front of me

so caring..

den send grandmum back

and aunt said treat me the Japanese food

omg... another heavy dinner..

but it's reali nice~~

THANK YOU~

Due to all this un-plan schedule

I miss the gathering

SORRY~

next time larr..

I want to bring my mum to foot massage

and eat many many delicious food

when I can earn my own money

I miss

I dun like here. There's no lock to protect me, myself.

It makes me feel like naked and uneased.

Luckily there's not so much ppl know this place.

Should I confess that I'm so vexed that I can't really read a book?

and all this were caused by u?

I might considered what Joyce had said..

There's no wrong right? why should I felt ashamed or guilty for that?

Juz make it clear, and that's it.

yaya~ should we have a LOMO trip..?

find a big sunny day and bring along the camera

chhi chhhak~ chhi chhak~

settle at least one whole roll of film

on?

umm.. supposed to revise my proposal..

but none of my brain cells are working on it..

Yesterday's wine tasting lesson quite good

Juz a few sip den all drunk

drunk in d early morning

and I'm simply felt sleepy

no crazy words, no crazy behaviour.

There're so muck knowledge about the wine

impossible to complete it within a lesson

so yea I'm still confusing about it.

I admit it

Yeapp~ my interview passed edy~

it was better than the first time in Dynasty Travel

thou I'm really don't know what I had said during the interview

gonna start to work in Namho travel agency from 1 NOV onwards

my lovely toes are worth for the pain..

Thanks our interviewer -- Mandy

she's so kind and friendly, pretty oso~ huhuhu...

I know there'll be a lot of hard work and stress waiting for me

gratefully there's another two classmates with me

Emm... NLB life is starting.

最近身边好像充斥着很多[爱情]

「我爱故我在」、「爱的练习本」、还有兼职当个Love consultant

一再的让我思考着爱到底是什么样子、什么东西

说得再好其实也没用

等到发生在自己身上的时候

事情就完全不是那个样了

我的爱情到底怎么了。

是对爱神圣的理想让我不敢跨越

还是我真的该考虑一下我这个人的魅力到底出了什么问题？

唔..我相信我还是有优点的。

一直在消化别人的爱情观

思考着到底该把哪一件套在我身上

我想好好的放胆去爱 就算受伤也在所不惜

我想好好守护我对爱情的理念 -- 宁缺勿滥

我想好好尝试跌倒了再爬起来的那个过程

我想好好体验每一段感觉不同 过程也不同的恋爱

我还年轻，所以应该要什么都不怕的去尝试。

已经有好几个人问我：“你没有男朋友噢？哪里可能~”

谢谢我真的没有男朋友。= =

所以这个故事告诉我们世界上没有什么是不可能滴~

好我承认。

我真的很想找个男朋友

因为距离上一个已经够久了我觉得已经是时候了。

“有很好的人选了吗？”

有，可是不好。

他的那一句‘想念’一直是我不敢跨出去的一大因素

不会是我 我也不知道会是谁

有时候我真的很想豁出去

然后痛痛快快地做个了断

可是很可惜，我凑巧是个拖拖拉拉优柔寡断的人

可能就像Joyce说的

告白，结婚，分手 -- 全靠的就是那一股冲动

哪一天冲动来了可能我就会说了。

我爱你 你爱她 她爱她 她爱他
你爱我 我爱他 他爱他 他爱她

怎么这世界 每个人都爱别人 不爱自己

请爱自己。

It's all about love.

我们总想表现得蛮不在乎，尤其对于那最在乎的事。

我们总是绕着圈、拐着弯，希望能爱与被爱却又不失冷漠的姿态。

不曾心碎过的人，不会有爱别人的能力。

我们充满了刺，却又那么想拥抱对方。

爱情这条路，每每碰到了抉择的关口，女人总是义无反顾地往前去了；

而那前方，是女人凭着一股愚勇，向着最不利己的方向，

凭着与生俱来的直觉就去了——就算直觉快速的盘算过一切并不乐观，

女人还是去了。

关于情感的表达，要学的实在太多，就先从承认开始。

承认，其实很简单、也很难。

承认爱一个人，承认不爱一个人，承认爱上一个不爱你的人，

承认爱上一个不适合你的人；承认妳爱他只是寂寞得要死；

承认你想结婚只是怕不嫁别人会用异样眼光看你；

承认你就是喜欢波大无脑的花痴；承认你爱她爱得很卑微......

怎样，难不难？

在情感上，你了解你需要什么吗？

你又敢理直气壮地向前伸手去拿你要的吗？

更重要的是，当你手上的爱并不是你真正想要的，你敢抛弃吗？

毕竟，我们不是橱窗里漂亮的模特儿，

我们只是寻求温暖的血肉之躯。

妳的人生，应该活在别人的期望里，

或是自己的决定下？

【我爱故我在 · 陶晶瑩】

该为读完这本书留下一些感言的

就像读书时代看完一本书就要写一篇读后感一样

是有感触的

整本书敏锐细腻 但还是充斥着浓浓的幸福

很多人就只是懂得放大自己和别人的缺点

当缺点变得无限大时

请问，你怎么还会看得见那个人的优点？

如果你只会埋怨身边的另一半转而对别人的另一半投以羡慕的眼光

请学会好好看清身边的那一个

只有懂得去找出和欣赏你的另一半

才有资格列入「幸福的人」这个栏位

谢谢你告诉我们

我说过 朋友之间从来就不在意事情发生的结果是好还是坏

姐妹淘之间最重要的就是互相倾吐秘密、互相询问意见的那一刻

不论你看得见与否

鼓励你是我给你的动力

你要记得我们一直都是站在你这一边的

放心去爱 我们会支持你的

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* My Life *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Damn.. I haven prepare my interview..

should write a script izzit..? otherwise I'll [ umm.. arr.. ] again..

ooh there's a law scenario I haven write it out..

tomolo I shall smile to Mr Daniel or juz run away from class?

FORGET IT~!!

sleeping is the most important thing

I shall lie on the bed now